My Song Is Love

1.) GraphCom
2.) LocVid
3.) MarCom
4.) Marketing
5.) WebGraph


I am most afraid, something might happen with LocVid. But I have faith! And I believe we can make it! Full steam ahead!

I read Melly's blog, and realized that like her, there has been no advancement of the Bauhaus type since Bryan's Approval Day.

Or rather, there is no action on the Eastern front. 'Cause like, Bauhaus is German right? And when Bauhaus started, there was East and West Germany, and the huge Berlin wall (but now no more). And like, Melly's post title is "There is no action on the western front" or something like that. Yeah, so that means my front is the Eastern one.

Bryan ist Spinnen von Angst und Melly ist Kuckuck. HAHA FIRST THING THAT CAME TO MY MIND WHEN I USED THE TRANSLATOR SOUNDS DAMN STUPID

You know, it's always the same case when we get praised. We'll either deny it, or see it as some form of sarcasm. Then we go on to degrade ourselves, because we personally don't feel worthy of the praise. Which causes us to just make us look smaller in our own eyes. All this while, we don't know that it's a vicious cycle because we mask it over with the thinking that, "No, I'm not this good. I want to be, but no, I'm not there yet. Maybe, I'll never be". And because we perceive that as a humble thought and thus the appropriate reaction to praise, we don't see anything wrong with thinking that way.

Then it becomes like a file. Chipping away at a statue that was already perfect, not in the eyes of the material world but in God's knowing eyes.

Often, our results and achievements may not seem to be up to par with personal standards or the ones the world has set for us. But that's no reason to turn away when people say you're an outstanding person.

If people can tell you that, people who are exposed to, the wants, the needs, the good and the evils of the world. If those people can tell you that you are outstanding, then there has to be meaning to it. There has to be!

And even if people didn't think you were outstanding, remember how loved you are by God, and that in you, He sees a work of art. No matter how horrible you feel about yourself. No matter how bad people may think you are. God still sees you as a work of art.

You know who you are, friend.

I consulted Melly today about Problem.

She told me I asked too soon. And that just made everything fall down a one-way road.

Melly says she's not experienced so I shouldn't listen to her. But, but...I felt a pang of truth when she said that.

It was always one-sided, never two. Even if it was, it was too little, too soon.

This whole Canoe thing is getting to me. And I'm not even in the CCA yet.

Bauhaus has been much, much better than expected. I've got my base design set. So now, I've got to get it past Ang Chiat and learn Illustrator and voila! Actually, if he rejects my design, I'll be all, "Balls to you, I'm doing it". 'Cause I like my design. I think it is Bauhaus-y.

I know, I know...but can't a guy inject some confidence in himself once in a while? *cuckoo smirk*

As for Logos, with Brother's help, I've gotten pretty far. Same as Bauhaus, all that's left is Ang Chiat and Illustrator. Hum-de-dum.

Ok, off to shower and continue sketching like an avidly artistic artists apprentice. Or maybe I should follow Brother's advice, and head for the DustBin.

The last 1 and a half hours were spent downstairs drawing logos (so sorry Mel(s), as I did not answer the msns).

Brother decided to join me, which made things interesting.


KeKe: "Ahhhhhh! I cannot come up with moooore!"

DiDi: "I usually go into the dustbin to think"


Haha! That made me laugh for a good 5 minutes. Whooo~~~~~~~
brother fun fun for nan nan.

Bryan: "Every time we walk past this area, see just past the green sign, and into the area without the fences, I feel like I'm in Spain"

Melly: "Yeah! Like, very fast right the moment? Then if you talk or what, you won't notice it"

Bryan: "Yeah! Cuckoo lah"

Melly: "We're in Spain now. Enjoy it while you can"

Bryan: "Mmhm"

Melvin: "Mrrrrmmm!"

We're just...too different. Is this an excuse to run away from my faults? Highly likely. But change..is so hard.



MY FAVORITE EPISODE OF COURAGE! KOOL MUSZAC!

"Just feeling a little bit...nauuuuuggghtyyyy"

Aiyah! I want to play soccer! And every Monday makes in worse because I come out of The Badminton Hall and I see the very nice and new artificial pitch. Then I regret not joining soccer.

So, let's play soccer this Saturday! Who's up for it!

"Don't presume and never assume"

- Dad




DAMN COOL! IF WE STILL PLAYED AS MUCH AS LAST TIME, I'D SURELY BUY!

I feel useless. Where did the Bryan of Secondary 2 go? Why can't I bring myself to study?

I. Am. Mortified.

I don't feel good now.
I hate to let You down.
I give myself expectations,
I hate to let You down.

And you breathe,
And you give me hope.
Give me strength.
Give me strength,
Give me hope...

I look back, far back.
I hate to let You down.
I break when I should bend,
I hate to let You down.

Like a Cinematic song,
Like food served good,
You make me love You.
Like breaking a fast,
Like etchings in sin,
I make me hate I.

And you breathe,
And you give me hope.
Give me strength.
Give me strength,
Give me hope...

Breathe,
And like you always do,
Give me love.
Love for myself.
Love that brings change.
Love for You.

Melly and I were talking about the Death Canoe plan, and to be honest, I wouldn't mind going out that way.

Truth to be told, Mel, Mel and Bry, have come up with some truly amazing plans. There's Spain. There's The Philippines. There's the Train Ride to KL. There's Canoeing. There's Freedom-A Duck's Story. There's Urgh-A Language. There's Bat Torture 101. There's Beer Cap Cliff. There's Melkaline Trio. And of course, there's Death Canoe.

Not to mention all the other nitty-gritty plans that we come up with spontaneously. Like Gender Change in the Philippines.

Ok, so not ALL the plans have ALL of our best interests in mind. Melvin's interests are suspiciously out of mind in several of The Plans.

But, I'm thankful we've come up with so many of 'em. It keeps life intersesting, when you know that somewhere down the road, no matter how old we are, we'll still know how to live life live, and have cuckoo fun.

Mmmm...placebo...

I carry your heart with me.
(I carry it in my heart)
I am never without it.
(Anywhere I go, you go, my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling)

I fear no fate.
(For you are my fate, sweet fate)
I want no world.
(For beautiful you are my world, my true)
And it's you are whatever a moon has always meant.
And whatever a sun will sing always sing is you.

Here is the deepest secret nobody knows.
(Here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud, and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
And this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart.

I carry you heart.
(I carry it in my heart)

- E. E. Cummings

I'm actually pretty much the same,
Just more open to things of the world.
But that's more on the inside.
If you stand far,
You'll think I'm stray.
So come close,
Come close,
Won't you?
Then we'll be gold.

Wahoo! We can continue looking forward to Spain without any doubts!

Melly has stupid thoughts like me too! Like the one where you envision yourself looking out from other people's perspectives. You know, like as if you are them, and you are really looking out of their face. Aiyah, unless you are part of the Stupid Thought club, it is hard to imagine.

We did good for Marketing today group, high 5!

And, and...I also think I've changed a lot since 3 years back. Maybe a little too much. Not that I don't like it. But it calls for some self-reflection on particular issues.

We'll just go to Spain and I'll get myself a chick there. Melly, I am referring to the one of Poultry origin.




This song, is ultimate.

I hope I can go for the Journalism trip. I hope I can go to Spain. I hope tomorrow will be a good day. I hope, I hope, I hope, I hope...


Actually, for no reason, I feel rather happy now. :D




ON A NIGHT LIKE THIS I FEEL LIKE DANCING IN MID-AIR

All of a sudden, I am thinking of Clouds. I like clouds, and in The Field, the clouds will forever be white and puffy.

Met up with Justin and Joy today. It is good to see Joy after such a long while! And...throughout the whole time out, I forgot to get the materials for marketing. Sorry family.

It's 8 o'clock now. I have a feeling this is going to be one of those rare days, where I feel accomplished at being productive. Off we go Bryan!



WE ALL JUST WANT TO HAVE FUN FUN FOR NAN NAN.

Go,
Down the street,
Pass the towns,
Into the sea,
We'll run, we'll run!
Through the fields,
Up the hills,
And fly, we'll fly!
See the skies,
Remember the stars,
We'll run far, far away.

Something's going wrong in the Pseudo-Family. It is never nice when you see a friend drift. Well...maybe it's not permanent, BUT STILL! We don't approve of that girl. But we've got a plan to save Bat. We hope it'll work.

Work is piling up. I just realized that GraphCom Logos and Bauhaus is due in 2-odd weeks time. None of my logos have been approved. I have not borrowed any referenced for Bauhaus. URGH. Luckily, next week is E-learning week. Go Bryan Go!

And I need help in WebGraph. And we have not started planning for filming for LocVid (thought it's not so urgent). And...and...thank goodness we're doing fine in Marketing. Sigh...strength, Bryan needs strength.

On a brighter note, money's coming in all of a sudden. My long over-due pay cheque is coming in this week. And YouthInk has earned me $160 in just a week (hopefully).




Push on Bryan!

Pray
Until
Something
Happens

People have been telling me how gay my blog looks. Ahh..shan't be affected, shan't be affected.

Today was Family Meeting 3. And it was kinda productive...towards the end I guess. We had pizza though! And Melly's stare is going to cause me to think twice about Spain. I feel bad too, cause apparently, Melly said I scared her in my Attempts For Revenge. And she also says I spout nonsense. Aww man...

So, Colin's, finally joining us on Friday for Marketing. How we're going to assimilate him I don't know, thought we'll try.

Am still very happy that I managed to get stall tickets to Stars. *beams*

WE ARE GOING TO STARS! :D

Juno Award-nominated Canadian indie band STARS will be performing in Singapore next year in January.


The band will be performing hit songs from their latest album In Our Bedroom After the War and of course their breakthrough song ‘Ageless Beauty’.

Now gold certified in Canada, their previous album proved so popular internationally that the band toured for two years since their 2004 release!

What: STARS Live!
When: Jan 7 2009
Where: Esplanade Concert Hall
Tickets: $68, $88, $108, $128 and $148 from Sistic





PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE MUM LEND ME THE MOOLAH FINGERS CROSSED!

Finally, the new blog is up!

Before anything, many thanks and salutations to Jan who made me the skin down to every last detail. You are much appreciated! :D

So...I guess this is a new start. Let's let it be one.

Till the next post!

TESTING TESTING 1 2 3

The Lord will fight for you, and you have only to keep still - Exodus 14:14




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