My Song Is Love

For some reason, this is like my fav. album cover. SO FAR.

It's like from his point of view and he's going "mmm, i'll bet that you'll look GOOD ON THE DANCE FLOOR" to the cashier girl (who, to me too, would look very good on the dance floor). So...risque.

FAV ALBUM COVAH

As we were walking down Boardwalk Way,
We stopped to look at the sun,
Stopped to question life and love,
How we'd live and learn.

So I looked at you and,
You looked at me,
For a good 5 minutes there,
You silent and with your,
Ever knowing eyes,

"What if we cease to exist?"
"Darling we'd never stop"
"What if we parted ways?"
"You know I'd follow you"

As we continued this, You say,
Let's stop to think of the fears,
Stop to question time and us,
How we'd live and learn,

So I hushed at you and,
You stared at me,
For a good 5 minutes there,
You knew I meant it, when,
I said forever.

"What if we cease to exist?"
"Darling we'd never stop"
"What if we parted ways?"
"You know I'd follow you"



No, I'm not addicted, but I really find it weird how a simple game like this can bring me bliss. In the form of short bursts of happiness/excitement, and for reasons I've yet to find out...peace.

I can safely say I find MouseHunt more enjoyable than any other online game I've played before. Yes, even over Half-Life.

If you do see this, this is for you Emeline.

Thinking back I may have sounded like a desperate prick who was just trying to be difficult and squeeze out every last drop of hope from the situation.

But you must understand that all I wanted was a reason. Because without it, I wouldn't know whether to continue, whether to press on, whether to be angry, whether to be sad...e.t.c. So now that there is a reason, I have direction and things can go on.

I'm sorry if my apparent stubborness has opened a rift us. I didn't mean it.

Friends? :D



This is the sort of thing that makes me wish I was hot, wanted and...LIVIN' IN BEVERLY HILLS. THAT'S WHERE I WANT TO BE. (ok sorry, i just really like that song)


Speaking about hot, I remember the goal I set for myself a while back to become "hot", by the worldly standard of it, by my 18th Birthday. Which is exactly...6 months and 2 days away.

I have 6 months and 2 days away to reach my goal. I better start now. I look like a weak chicken and my arms are shrinking faster than a slug doused in salt. HOUGANG SPORTS COMPLEX HERE I COME.

Watch me.



I'll do what I always do,
And drown in work,
Loose myself in the gym,
But go back to God,
Go back to strength.



You are my Brother.

And I cannot stand by and watch you fall like this.

I've deleted quite a number of recent posts because I think they are redundant or stuff that I would pretty much like to move on from.

Things are starting to look up. WebD is very near completion and I pray that nothing goes wrong. Next week is Week 7, so there are no deadlines whatsoever due. At last, a breather.

The past 2 odd weeks have been a whirlwind of life and WebD/Radio. I've not had any real sleep for 4 nights and counting. I need something, to help me forget all the stress that I've brought upon myself lest I turn white, shrivel up and die.

And that's about it. High time I get back to my flash and finish this. Go me!



"You know how people always tell you to think about your future?"
"Yeah"
"Wanna know what I see?"
"Shoot"
"You, I see you. And a future between us"

It is 1.49am, I am sitting at my workspace and compiling my interviews. Listening to Viva La Vida live, glad to know that I was part of the experience.

I always wonder whether it was a good or a bad thing for me to be born in Singapore. This in comparison to the other "developed" countries out there (because no one in their right mind will think of being born in a country worse off than theirs).

Anyway, DiDi is on this, "I want to live in a car" phase of his life. Damn cuckoo.

I came home in the morning
And everything was gone
Oh what have I done
I dropped dead in the hallway
Cursing the dawn
Oh come on sun
Why must I burn
I’m just trying to learn

I stared into the light
To kill some of my pain
It was all in vain
Cause no senses remain
But an ache in my body
And regret on my mind
But I’ll be fine

Cause I live and I learn
Yes I live and I learn
If you live you will learn
I live and I learn

Got kicked in the head
So I started a fight
Cause I knew I was right
But I learned I was wrong
I remember a slaughter
I remember I fought
For the money I brought
I got blistered and burned
And lost what I earned

But I live and I learn
Yes I live and I learn

I got, I got it now
She’s got, She’s got it now

I came to on a corner
With some help from a man and goddamn
I don’t seem to have learnt
That a lady in need is guilty indeed
So I paid and got laid in return
And I don’t know what I’ve learned

Well you get what you give
And hell yes I lived
But if you live as you learn
I don’t think I'd be learned
Oh with the sun in my eyes
Surprise, I’m living a life
But I don’t seem to learn
No I don’t think I can learn



This was the highlight of the day!


There are many more photos but once again, internet and its download/upload technology has chosen to fail on me. The frequency at which it does simply astounds me.

On to Poll Article. If you don't hear from me in the next few days, it must've mean I've fused and died in my roller chair.

I thought I might have been a Ghost.

This word of the week is "Tension". Lots and lots of tension. Anyhow, people are speculating, and you know me, I don't like speculation. Not. One. Single. Bit! Not in my power to stop them though.

I have Radio with melvin tomorrow in the morning and then gym and then the arts fest thing. I need 4 more interviews. C'mon....

Life has taken a turn for the worse. I have lost my Mac charger. Do hope that there'll be a few for me to take at the lost and found, or else I'll have to shell out 150 bucks. I have the funds for that but...there'll go half my stockpile for GSS. :(

Cause you are the brightest star,
And I'm in love with who you are.
You are the brightest start,
And I'm lost without you.

Bryan: So mum, you wanna know why I didn't plan anything special for you today?
Mum: *sips coke* Why?
Bryan: Well....cause to me, everyday is mother's day.
Mum: What kind of lame line is that?


Love, admire and most of all, appreciate you greatly Mum. You make sure my everyday is fine and I cannot thank you enough.



Under the influence of alcohol.


PEOPLE. I AM SORRY FOR INCONVENIENCE CAUSED LAST NIGHT. NEVER WILL I ALLOW MYSELF TO BE LIKE THIS AGN. WILL TREAT ALL OF YOU TO MEAL/PRAWING....more alcohol? HAHA

thank you all for ensuring i survived till today.

My family is failing on me.


Us: om nom nom munch munch slurp
Dad: why you guys don't want to eat the pork?
Us: fatty lah dad.
Dad: why mine you don't eat but 3rd Grandaunt, Aunt and Ah-ma cook one you guys eat? you think mine dirty is it?
Us: *whutttttt*
Dad: *storms off*

15 minutes later

Dad: eh, if you want to go out tonight, just go ok? go find your friends. dinner is cancled. no more.


what.the.fuck.

Stupid mid-life crisis that my Dad is going through. Insecure then don't want to talk about it then get angry with us blaming us for his insecurity.

If this is what every man has to go through when they hit 50 then I'd rather not get married. I don't want to put my wife through such shit.



Now that your wallet is all lit up.

"Whatever happens, never forget who you are, for I will be very disappointed if you do"

Oh fuck. The new transformers movie made me cum. JUNE 23RD OR WHATEVER DATE LAGGY SINGAPORE SHOWS TRANSFORMERS 2 YOU HAD BETTER COME SOON AHHH CANNOT WAIT

Weight: 9 oz.
Location: Mousoleum
Loot: 20 pieces of cheddar cheese, 15 pieces of marble cheese, 10 pieces of swiss cheese
Total Gold: 9109 | Total Points: 9092

This sort of made my week before it even began. Along with the Furoma Map, it has been a good weekend in MouseHunt! Cannot wait till Grandmaster and Furoma.



We played, well if can even consider that playing, soccer till late today at some ulu area of Clementi/Dover. Madness. We love NP.

Tomorrow, I am skipping IEA and going to Settlers before returning for the event's pitch at 5. I seem to be spending a lot of time in the area these days.

To end this post off, I would like to say, Good. I hope you've finally understood.

Well, you can't win 'em all.

In my mind there are actually a lot of things swirling. I always wonder if I am living a lie or am part of something really rare (at least to me). I feel stupid saying "to hell with it" and then coming back begging a week or so later. It's a very helpless feeling, like as if my life and sanity depend on it. I suppose you yourself do not know that you are doing this to me or find it extremely creepy that someone could turn out like that. I don't have any good defence in particular.

Talking to you is like talking to a stranger. 'Cept you're a stranger I've known for 5 years.

Swine flu is pretty serious. The past few days have been riddled with talks about a possible MCM WARD at Tan Tok Seng.

I am half proud of myself because I did what I set out to do today and finished my WebD assignment. Storyboards and all. Especially proud of my products pages. Wellz, we'll see what Matthew says.

Elise and I have organized Pig Day. Though the day is far off I am already drooling in anticipation of the food that is to come. Silently now cause everyone is sleeping, om nom nom nom.

Leads test tomorrow, Radio interviews, Matthew videos and of course canoe all lined up for next week. WebD took away my gym today, but I'll get it back tomorrow and on Tuesday. Will run like a dog comes Tuesday night. If I don't make use of this motivation now, there's no telling when it'll come back again. I cannot afford to take the risk.

Not gna let you down.

The Lord will fight for you, and you have only to keep still - Exodus 14:14




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